Saturday, January 31, 2015

Nature Lover Poetry

A Lust for Nature

A cool wind ruffles my hair
gentler than a lover’s touch.
The rush of air relaxes my face
into a small grin.

I breathe a breath of air
so deep
it awakens my soul.
Gazing longingly at the
mountains,
I place myself there
among nature’s
beauteous landscape.

I listen to the
harmonious songbirds.
Delicate swaths
of vibrant green moss
carpet the forest floor.
A brilliant blue sky
blends seamlessly
with the distant horizon.


Sweet Memories 

I remember
the light tingling sensations
you get when teeny, tiny water droplets
land on the hairs of your arms.
I remember
the vast expanse of visible sky
and rolling mountains.
I remember
The billions of stars
that freckled the night sky.
I remember
frequent hikes through
dense forest and
the trampoline amidst
tall, wild grass.
I remember
summer’s sunsets
we used to watch
every evening with
watermelon juice
trickling down our arms
and across our faces.
I remember
quiet nights when
all you could hear
was the sigh of a stray car
as it rolled by
or wind blowing
through leaves.

I remember…


Mountain Mist

As the sun peeks over the horizon,
clouds fill the air and
decorate the mountain tops.
Between the sun and the rising mist,
the valleys are filled with
pastel shades of cerulean.
Each layered blue ridge and
each delicately obscured valley,
seem to add to the broadness
of the mountain range.
The way the mist embraces the
forested valleys, it seems clear
just how ancient these mountains are.

Just as people grow smaller
with wear and tear,
so must these lauded mountains.
Over hundreds of centuries,
rain has fallen, storms
have vandalized and
mist has clung to these mountains;
as reassuring as a loved one’s embrace.


Summer Sun

An illuminating sun
shines so bright,
it seems to reveal new
shades of green on the
slopes of Appalachia.

A near cloudless sky
holds a hue of blue that
gradually fades to
an off-white blue
as it approaches a
blue-gray horizon.

Friday, January 30, 2015

Upping Endurance

So I started thinking that one of the best ways to raise my endurance would be to participate in running events such as the Color Run, and a two day, 40 mile walk: the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer. The thing about the latter event is that I'd have to raise a heck of a lot of money in order to participate. With any luck I'll be able to raise the money before it starts in May.

A while ago I was also interested in trying the Tough Mudder but, I don't think I'd be able to gather enough people together to form a team. Plus there are people who have ended up in need of hospital care due to attempting such an obstacle course.

A third thing I plan to attempt before beginning the through-hike is to run until I hit the "wall" and then see if I can run through it. From what I learned in a personal fitness class at Montgomery College, when an athlete hits the wall it's because their body has switched from an easy access energy source, e.g. protein, and basically what ever you got from your last meal, to an energy form that's harder to access, e.g. fats. Turning your own fat into a source of energy takes more time so while going through this transition, you would generally have a mental and emotional breakdown and feel like quitting. Many people are unable to complete marathons because of the "wall" which is why I think it would be wise to test my ability to get through it before a >2,000 mile hike up the east coast.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Why Life Drives Us Crazy

How many people out there are driven crazy by their lives? By the people in them? By the circumstances that arise? Well, here's something to consider:

Perhaps life drives us crazy so that we can find sanity. Often times you have to travel through the dark to switch on the light. We're all seeking the light switch and in the mean time we're stumbling blindly through rooms and long corridors, driving each other crazy believing that everyone else is an idiot on the wrong track when in reality we're all equally clueless. That light switch isn't where we all think it is. It's not hiding in a shadow on the wall. We are the light and we only have to believe it to be true for others to see that our light is within all of humanity.

 As absurd as that seems, I truly believe this is accurate. We, as a whole population, create our own heaven and hell here on Earth. We hold both goodness and evil and as the Native American proverb goes, the one that lives is the one we feed. If you recognize your potential for greatness, you will be able to guide others towards discovering their own light. Listen to your own heart's guidance and follow it, and then maybe those around you will start listening for and following theirs.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Strayed, Wild, and Present

I saw the movie "Wild" this evening and despite all the hassle witnessed, I still want to through-hike the Appalachian Trail. I feel that the physical battle that will manifest will allow the emotional turmoil to move through me instead of having it trapped inside. The numerous issues I've carried throughout my life have at the very least gotten lighter, but I know there's more healing to be done.

This particular movie actually portrays this very well. Her physical struggle helped massage the grief out of her; it forced her to relive moments of her life and then come to terms with it all; the grief, the mistakes, everything. The journey forced her perspective to shift just enough so that her life seemed to matter again. She even managed to forgive herself and move forward.

When I through-hike the Appalachian Trail, I plan to finish letting go of the past and step purposefully into the present; no not the future, the present. I hope being on the trail will teach me how to remain entirely present and that I will be able to carry that knowledge through the rest of my life.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

To Teach, To Hike (and to Hell With Normalcy)

So I've talked about my dream of hiking the AT but another huge goal of mine is to be a teacher; and they are more intrinsically linked than you might expect. Four to six months of introspection is something I feel I need in order to become the best version of myself which, I'll need to do before becoming a teacher. Children love to hear about other people's stories. If I complete this hike, I'll be able to share adventurous tales that will show them that no matter where they are in life at this moment, they can go anywhere they want if they put their mind to it. I want to be able to epitomize not just a dreamer, but a doer; someone who successfully follows their dreams despite, or perhaps because of, all the naysayers. Once I've hiked the trail, I will see my career as my dream job, not a job that's in the way of my other dream. It would be a mistake to become a teacher before finishing the Appalachian Trail because not all of my attention will be on the children; a good chunk of it will be focused on the hike I didn't make happen.
The other types of things I want to be able to teach them is that, every single person they ever run into, will be able to teach them something and vice-versa. Due to this reciprocity, we need to respect each of those people. I also hope to show them why they shouldn't fall for the fallacy of the word "normal". We all have made up our own definitions in our head as to what that word really means and very few of them would match up. And since there are people from all corners of the earth living in all other corners of the earth, the word has become moot. My last and, to my mind, strongest point that proves this is that if someone can say I'm normal, then, seriously, what the hell does that mean. I was adopted when I was six and I've felt like an outcast at almost every school; there's no way that word applies to me; and yet someone used "normal" to describe me one day.

Monday, January 26, 2015

To Through-Hike the Appalachian Trail

Although there was, predictably, a definite lack of focus in my first entry, the three items that ended up on the page are the types of things I'll be discussing in this blog. I love writing and hiking and I've been trying for the last few years to become more enlightened. In the end, I hope to enjoy a journey that includes all three while through-hiking the Appalachian Trail next year. In this blog, I will be posting what I've done to physically and mentally prepare for the trip as well as some of the reasons I feel the desire, and really almost a need, to complete this type of journey.
If I end up lucky enough to start getting hundreds of page views, I'll start asking the public for advice on how to not only prepare for the trek but also how to find a group of experienced hikers to go with. My hope is that I can hike with at least one person who has done a through hike before.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

A Welcoming Stream of Consciousness

Welcome to my first blog! I've finally decided that as a "wanna be writer" I should have something a bit better than a gazillion half filled journals around the house. I've been filling them up as halfheartedly as some of the photo albums I have and one of them is sooo nice that I'm worried no story will do it justice; I mean it's a leather-bound journal that was handmade in Italy, what on earth am I supposed to write in that?
Don't get me wrong, I love writing, it's just that I'm more likely to write an occasional poem than complete a whole book. I almost view it as an emergency form of self-expression despite how meditative I find the experience. For me, writing, like hiking, forces me to be introspective. These activities help me separate the essential and non-essential parts of my reality as well as allow me to alter my perspective of negative events. The latter is one of the most self-empowering things you can learn to do. Here's an example of what I mean:
One evening, I was admiring an incredible, awe-inspiring sunset that had numerous streaks of sunlight poking out from behind the clouds; I mean this was happening all along the western horizon and in this moment, I had the most extraordinary insight. I realized that evening that it's not the sun that makes a sunset beautiful, nor is it the clouds; it's the juxtaposition of light and dark, of sun and shadow that made it spectacular. This goes for our lives as well. Our lives aren't beautiful because they're perfect or easy and they're certainly not beautiful because they're entirely filled with gloom. Our lives are awe-inspiring because of both our struggles and triumphs.
Life is a journey and we need to learn to treat it as such. We're going to hit mountains and valleys, paved roads and marshes. If you're really struggling to find the light in your life, start creating your own. Find a dream worth striving for and do it; choose to turn you're life around now. It helps if you can remember a time when you were happy and then work on figuring out just what it was that made you feel that way. It could just be that you were so care free then, or maybe you found out that you were able to help those less fortunate. Whatever it was, find it and pursue it as though your life depended on it and don't let setbacks prevent you from reaching that dream of yours.