This post is more to untangle the Gordian Knot that has made itself at home in my mind than anything else so I hope you can pardon the disorganization. It is an attempt to leave behind this funky mood that I appear to have an unhealthy addiction to. Perhaps a part of me loves feeling depressed because despite all the positives in my life, I've been choosing the doom and gloom outlook. Part of it has to do with the current state of politics that seem to evoke a deep pervasive feeling of hopelessness. When I look toward the future, I see nothing. There are plenty of ideas flooding my head as is the curse of the Gemini, but none of them are settling in my head and heart as feasible options.
Things I Appreciate
1.) Me and my siblings adoptions
2.) My 2 best elementary school friends (even though I haven't seen them since)
3.) My tenacity and perseverance in ignoring naysayers
4.) The years I've worked with children
5.) My ability to be patient with children
6.) Volunteering with the Special Olympics for my birthday
7.) Seeing the Grand Canyon, Bryce and Zion Canyons for my 13th birthday
8.) To have been able to save money from an early age
9.) Completing high school after having learned of past traumatic events (i,e.-despite severe depression)
10,) Obtaining a full scholarship for my first year at Montgomery College
11.) Getting straight A's one semester at Shepherd University
12.) Completing a degree from Shepherd University after my older brother attempted suicide
13.) Choosing to start and successfully completing the Appalachian Trail
14.) Having been able to save money while working at Panera less than 40 hours a week
15.) My 8 month trip to Europe, the UK and Morocco and having money left over
