So, between my birthday and now, many things have been on my mind but none of them seemed worth mentioning partially because they were negative events that my consciousness magnified into reasons to remain unhappy. For example, my old phone crashed and died and could not be "resuscitated" with a factory reset or anything of the sort. Everything that wasn't on the SD card that I bought while in a town in Northern VA, was lost, including hundreds of trail photos. On top of that, no get together occurred with my Montgomery College friends, the reasoning different for each friend and partly because I was busy spending time at a Verizon store instead. Luckily for me, the phone was going to be bought by my immediate family (Mom, Dad, and my sister) and I also happened to choose the one free phone in the store. So there was some good that came of it.
I also tried to rescue the photos from the phone's SIM card with the card reader my friend gave me, but the darn thing swallowed it whole and hasn't given it back. (Yes, I like metaphors. Sorry if I'm overusing them; it's the poet in me.) Apparently, I might have needed some sort of adapter before beginning. I have been unable to give it up just yet though.
Then this past weekend, there was a new family emergency involving the poor health of one of my siblings that involved a 1:00 AM hospital visit and a few doses of morphine. So I've been spending a bit of time processing these events mutely....which of course, for me, is ineffective. I need to talk it out or write it out but my desire to not sound like a whining child wins out in times like this.
This is why some of my previous posts have been without focus. It's difficult to pretend you're focused on something you're not so you end up with some bizarre outcomes when you try.
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