Concerns

I haven't made a post in numerous days because I didn't have anything useful on my mind; just constant stress. Some of it being that I still have not made a deposit of any amount into the bank. But most of it is about how afraid I'm becoming of the people in this country.

If this turns out the way I dread, I fear there will be an all out war within our nation, caused by our people as well as foreign nations. We could potentially become the targets of bombings ourselves if we direct so much loathing at all the other people in this world. If we show them that hatred, they'll be inclined to defend themselves against us by being the first to strike out. They will prove our fears right if we never give them a chance to prove us wrong. If all we feed them is that they're terrible people who bring drugs, crime and terrorism into this country, they will return the loathsome feelings and lash out; they'll say, "I guess you're right, we're a disaster to America, and we're going to prove it to you". If we don't eradicate the hate talk, we're going to make the nearly unmanageable completely unmanageable. We should remain a beacon of hope to the world, not one of absolute uncontrollable fears. We're a powerful nation right now, but if we make all future decisions based on how much we fear those in our own country, documented or not, we'll lose all of our power. And if we act on those fears that lay outside this country and constantly go on to attack what's out there, literally and/or figuratively, we'll never have enough energy or resources to defend what's here.

The other major fear is that all of the sexual predators out there who currently have a partial conscience right now, if they see a President Trump, they'll start feeling like it's acceptable behavior because America just voted for someone who at the very least speaks the way they think. Even if, for the sake of argument, Trump never did those things that he mentioned on the recording, he did verbally prove to sex offenders/predators that he at least thinks the way they do. If he becomes president, the part of them that told them it's wrong will have no hold on them anymore and they're highly likely to up the ante; they won't hold back anymore. That is my biggest fear because I have, as mentioned quite a while ago, been sexually assaulted and I want their conscience to loom over them. I've also had a man on a bus talk loudly enough for each passenger and the driver to hear him and say, in much cruder language, that I must not be getting enough due to such and such. I didn't even turn around to face him because I wanted to be able to pretend that no one on that bus knew who he was talking about. If this carries on in a bigger way against all women, I'm going to be constantly on edge. Please don't dismiss this as an over-reaction.

If this problem included men in such a way where men were groped and kissed randomly by other men and then had all of society tell them they asked for it given how they dressed or that "boys will be boys" bullshit cliche, more men would be able to stand by our side and say, "yes, this is a huge emotional problem that needs to be addressed". And it needs to be addressed better than when Trump essentially said: well, at least I'm not ISIS, when confronted with the hot-mic issue in the second debate. I said essentially.

Please do us a favor, America, and help those women who have suffered abuse at the hands of men keep those occurrences behind them because right now these instances are being constantly replayed in our heads. I've forgiven those who have done me wrong in the past but that does not mean that I should then hand those people a metaphorical  "get out of jail free card" by electing Trump. (The jail being their conscience.)
It could be and should be these predators vs. the rest of America.