How the Steep Cost of Shame Pushed Me to Embrace Self-Love

Shame exists in people who cannot see themselves as good people and I'd guess most of us are either still stuck in it or has experienced episodes of shame at some point. I have been stuck in shame my whole life; I always felt like I was a bad person and that I deserved to never be free. But recently, my eyes have been opened in a way they have never been before. I recently witnessed my deep-seated shame dramatically end a relationship. By being unable to forgive myself for a prior more minor mistake, I projected the unforgiveness onto a person who had already let go of the matter. Obviously, he didn't directly tell me I was forgiven or else that prolonged uncertainty would not have caused me so much distress.
Until recently, I thought I had to stay locked in a prison cell made of shame and guilt in order to properly show remorse, to show that I'm sorry. But in the end, that prison I thought I deserved actually ignited another moment of self-destruction. A part of me wanted to say, "See?!? I told you I was unlovable." But after dealing with the steep cost of shame driven self-destruction, I learned that shame could not make me a better person. It actually made me toxic. This incident taught me that you cannot become a good person until you learn to see yourself that way.

Standing in the Remembrance of My Sovereignty

Arch Angel Michael, I call upon you now.
Please cut ALL the energy cords,
ALL the mental cords, and
ALL the emotional cords
that have been attached to this person,
this predicament,
as well as the attachment
to a specific outcome.

Arch Angel Michael,
please cut the cords of knotted emotion
that have surfaced due to my mistakes.
Please cut away any and all attachments
to the old narrative,
the old patterning of
imprisoning myself within
the confines of guilt...
and the coffin of shame.

I am, and have always been,
as innocent as a child learning to walk.
While I have remorse for the harm I caused,
I can't help but acknowledge that this...
this is how I have been treating myself for years.
No, I am not admitting this
to sound underhanded,
but to validate all my feelings equally...
because shame is a burden
that I can no longer carry.

I have nothing
but love for you,
but fear won me over.

And today, I cocreate
and claim a reality where
I no longer need anyone's validation...
I cocreate and claim a life where
I no longer need anyone
to understand my reality
or see my truth.
For today, I acknowledge that
I am capable of validating my
own experience,
of validating my feelings
and my truth.

I release this entanglement...
this enmeshment here, now, and forever.
I release the insane contract I unfairly constructed
for you to "follow."
I release you with tremendous love
for my big heart is still very real.
To honor you properly
I will strive to use this
as a lesson I can grow from.
I release you with tremendous love,
here, now, and forever.

As I step into my new life,
I acknowledge that my power,
my sovereignty,
and my innocence...
they are completely intact
for they were never truly threatened.

Shame no longer serves me,
so I release it with tremendous love
here, now, and forever.
Guilt no longer serves me,
so I release it with tremendous love
here, now, and forever.
The victim mentality no longer serves me,
so I release it with tremendous love
here, now, and forever.

As I validate my truth
and release ALL
that no longer serves me,
I step into my power,
the power of remembrance.
I step into,
not only a life of service,
but a life that serves me
now that I know myself
to be fully deserving
of all things good,
of heaven here on earth.

As I validate my truth
and release ALL
that no longer serves me,
I shall stand firmly rooted in self-love...
I shall become capable
of offering unflinching,
unconditional
loving compassion
for absolutely everyone...
for everyone
including myself.