Take Me By the Hand

Dear God, what would you have me know today?

Dear God, what would you have me see today?

Dear God, what would you have me heal today?

Where am I in this journey of learning and healing?
Where am I in this journey of self-discovery?
I'm in a new place and I don't recognize it.
I am no longer shambling through the dense underbrush,
but neither have I summited the mountaintop.
I admit, I usually know better
than to yearn for the finish-line,
but this sensation of winding
through endless switchbacks
has heightened my desire to be done.

I want to have reached a place
where it does not feel strange to love myself.
I want to have reached a place
where it does not feel unnerving to stand up for myself.
I want to have reached a place
where I no longer question my deservingness or lovability.
I feel I have been "on my way"
for what seems like a very long time.

So dear God, please take me by the hand
and lead me beside the still waters.
Dear God, please take me by the hand,
and lead me to the pastures
so I may lay upon the soft down of Mother Earth.
Dear God, please take me by the hand
and guide me to Your Kingdom.
For all I know is that it lays deep within,
and hides like Avalon, beyond the mists;
beyond the fog of the ego's illusions.