Please Tell Me

I'm at a loss. What can I do?
I know two things to be true.
Both the pain of the past
and the healing grace of God.

But how can I leave the former behind
and step fully into God's grace?
How can I give God greater power
than my past pain?
Is there a way?
Please tell me God,
is there a way?

I am tired God.
My heart is weary, God.
My mind is lost, God.
It wanders aimlessly
through the same dark labyrinth, God.

How can I open to Your healing grace?
How can I return to You
when my mind insists on holding itself captive
in its own twisted hell-scape?
Please tell me, God, how can I let You in?
How can I undo eons of conditioned patterns?
Please give me a hand, God.
Please hold my hand as I find my way
out of the valley of the shadow of death.

I want to feel You by my side again, God.
I want to know beyond a shadow of a doubt
that You have never left me.