Being Planted

    So yesterday I played with the Christine Caine quote, "Sometimes when you're in a dark place you think you've been buried, but you've actually been planted." Even though I couldn't remember the whole quote nor the person who came up with it, I've been thinking about that idea an awful lot lately. It's a pretty profound message of hope. As someone who feels quite literally trapped in this life fairly often, it has been a useful thing to consider. I have to believe that in the grand scheme of things I am actually still growing toward the sunlight just like a seed beneath the soil. In some ways I DO feel the potentiality within me to be something and someone better, stronger, and more confident. For a lot of my life I have felt that I had something in me that no one could see through all my craziness. I felt smart, but unable to prove it.
    I feel that when the time is ripe, I will be able to experience exponential growth and transformation; I feel that I will break through the top-soil and reach for the sun. In many ways, I've felt buried to some degree or another for much of my life. But each time, I rose above the chaos and accomplished something remarkable. This is certainly the time to notice this pattern so I don't get discouraged by what's going on in my life. As I stated a few years ago, sometimes things fall apart so that something better can fall together.