All I Have Is Faith

How long does it take for our convictions
to lead to the recovery of long lost memories?
What steps must one take to remember
our time between lives?

I have tried to recall,
I have tried to summon
the memory of choosing this life,
to summon the memory of my mission of love.
But alas, all I have is faith.
Faith that I must have chosen this incarnation
with a plan to instill seeds of peace and grace
within the hearts of others.
All I have is faith.
Faith that I must have known what this choice entailed,
that I must have known then,
that I cannot aid in restoring humanity's sanity
if I didn't lose some of my own.
All I have is faith.
Faith that I must have known then,
that I cannot aid in restoring
the original paradigm of light and hope,
without overcoming darkness and despair.

Does this mean that my soul thought itself a martyr?
Or perhaps, better yet,
a phoenix whose life begins and ends with flames.
Perhaps that's one of the lessons I am here to learn.
That I am not meant to keep choosing martyrdom.
I am not here to suffer on behalf of humanity
but to understand all of humanity
so that I may aid in healing the pain of the ego,
the pain held by mass consciousness.

All I have is faith, and I pray that is enough.