Let Me Choose Again

Again and again I have chosen
pain, suffering, struggle, and lack.
A part of me believes that I began
choosing these out of habit and
due to the false belief that
there was no other choice before me.

Since my soul chose a life path
that held early and severe suffering,
my ego never recognized
that there was another option,
that there was a way to have heaven here on Earth
with all of the ups and downs life inevitably entails.

So where I have repeatedly chosen pain and suffering,
let me now choose peace and grace.
Where I have repeatedly denied myself
the experience of enjoying this incarnation,
let me, in every iteration of now, choose to love being me
and all that happens to encompass.
I wish to choose, in this moment,
to finally allow myself to love my body fully,
to accept fully, my human female form,
to accept exactly where my body is in this moment
despite its current inability to give me
the experiences I most desire.

In this divine moment,
I choose to own up
to my choice of pain, suffering, struggle, and lack
and to recognize it as a choice
that stemmed from ignorance,
from a firmly held belief
that I was and had always been
forsaken by You and Your love.
As I acknowledge these painful ideologies as false,
I forgive myself for my ignorance
and take this moment to replace
these falsehoods with Your truth.
The truth that my heart
rests peacefully in the palm of Your hand, Dear God.
The truth that Your will for me
has always been perfect happiness
and peace that surpasses all understanding.
The truth that the love I so freely give to others
also belongs to me.
For every gift I give to others,
inherently belongs to me.

I replace the false belief
that pain and suffering is all there is
and all that I deserve
with the truth that YOU are ALL there is,
that YOUR LOVE is all there is,
that YOUR PEACE is all there is,
that YOUR GRACE and GLORY is all there is.
All else is illusory.
All things not of You are merely illusions
and a call for Your divine loving light.
I replace the false belief
that I am an inferior human
with the Divine understanding, the Divine truth,
that I am a perfect vessel,
a perfect messenger for Your perfect message.
The truth that I chose this form
and this storyline
so that my message would resonate more powerfully,
would reverberate in a much more all encompassing way.

My life is Yours, Dear God,
so please take me by the hand
and continue to fill my heart and mind
with Your Words of Wisdom.
I assure You God, that I am ready
to share my healing with the world.
I assure You God, that the Divine healing
you have gifted to me will never end with me.
I will always share Your overflow
of Light, Love, Grace, and Peace with all whom I encounter.
For I accepted this mission the day I was born
and I have been preparing for this for many, many lifetimes.
I AM READY, GOD! I AM READY!
I let You in NOW and in every single iteration of Now.
I fully and wholly accept this transformation God,
I accept this transformation.
Thank you, God. Thank you, God. Thank you, God.
Let this be so and so it is. Amen.