Going West

    So, I left out a piece of good news in my previous post. I have a bit of delayed gratification in terms of a trip out west. I needed this because I don't think I could have summoned the energy to get this house ready to be sold. Since I really do not want to let go of my grandfather's house, it has been hard for me to summon the will-power/energy to get anything done that would help with this endeavor.
Although I'm ecstatic about the trip, the complicated bit is that I said yes to it thanks to both a dream followed by a moment of intuition (during meditation)...so how I will then afford a down payment on an apartment after this is a whole other question.
    That said, I do have an idea for making money...it just isn't an avenue that guarantees a steady flow so it would definitely be a leap and an act of faith. Hopefully I have a compelling enough story and voice to eventually turn a profit while helping the countless others who struggle with many of the things I have had to deal with.
    I share, and will continue to share my story, to try to give people a sense of hope as well as assurance that they are not alone in the ways in which they suffer. I want them to know that I am right there with them, toiling through the same B.S. and hoping that one day I will wake up and realize that none of the past has snuck into my day through a trigger or an unbidden thought in ages. Even when the thought comes to mind, it doesn't shake me. The only trouble I face now is that a part of my consciousness believes that the trauma could occur again, which is why I find it so easy to believe that certain compliments from men are proof that those men objectify women. And maybe I'm not too far off base on that assumption... I don't have the mental energy to explain this at the moment.