So yesterday, I spent the day reading a book entitled Intuitive Wellness with the idea of working through my cold a bit faster and to work on the major fears I still have. I'm not afraid of spiders, snakes or heights but I am afraid of the more common issues that arise in life such as failure, hearing 'no' after asking for something I want or need, and like just about everyone, I'm afraid of rejection. I have the hardest time trusting myself with just about anything. It used to be simple stuff like moving onto the next grade. For some reason, I was under the impression that each year would be astronomically harder than the last. Now, I've moved out and gotten my third job and I'm petrified of losing both.
This is a big reason for wanting to hike the trail. It will help me begin trusting myself thereby empowering me. Despite all the amazing things I've accomplished in my 22 years, I'm just as terrified as 10 year old would be about handling a job and affording rent. I can't make it too far in life if I'm stuck in a petrified state and this hike will provide the transformative experience I need in order to fully believe in myself and reach my full potential.
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