"Unflinching, Unconditional Self-Love"

    My breakthrough 5 days ago wonderfully paralleled the beginning of last night's channeled class in which the masters discussed "unflinching, unconditional self-love." Not egoic self-love, but soul centered love. We should be unashamed of our humanness and remember that we do not have to apologize for being who we are. And the idea that I can acknowledge all the parts of my character that stem from trauma as facets that are important to God and the vision He has for me can help me practice unflinching, unconditional self-love. It will help me to cease criticizing myself for all of my real and perceived shortcomings. And as I have stated before, you cannot grow from where you are if you are busy judging where you are or even where you're from. Saying "I'm too  _______", will not spark progress. Acknowledging and accepting where you are while envisioning where you want to be can help catalyze progress. The last time I thought of this, it was in regards to cleaning a mess. I had spent so much time criticizing myself for the mess, that I couldn't even tackle it. Seeing it would fill me with self-loathing and that isn't a motivating feeling.
    I am hopeful that in time, I can master these things. As I have tried to express before, just because you have come up with a brilliant idea or a profound belief, doesn't mean you have fully internalized it. Although, I will say that for the most part, I am finally ok with my storyline. Yes, I did have to watch Gilmore Girls in order to vicariously experience through Rory the type of high school/college life I might have been able to have had my life played out differently, but at least I was spared the extra teenage angst of heartbreak. Plus, no one stood me up for prom. I have to say that I have played a pretty damn good hand with the cards I have been given.