We are all different, that's why we call ourselves individuals. But some people find it hard to relate to and befriend those who have differences they can't understand. My differences, as I've stated once before, caused me to be an epicenter for misunderstandings which led my peers to go from impatient and frustrated with me, to holding grudges against me, to disliking or hating me. That is what has led me to believe that I am always just one faux pas away from losing people. I get stuck in that mindset and make it my mission to resolve every misunderstanding as quickly as possible and to explain myself with each apology. I always say, "I'm sorry. I did x, y, and z, because I figured a, b, and c." It's a stressful way to view things which explains my constant state of anxiety. I love people dearly and am convinced that I will say or do something that will push them away and that's a big reason why I don't reach out to people in the midst of my depressive episodes. It's my own personal crisis and I feel that I'm the one responsible for getting myself out of it.
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