To Lean Into the Wisdom of My Soul

Dear God, what would You have me know today?
Dear God, what would You have me see today?
Dear God, what would you have me learn today?

Dear Mother, Father, God, I surrender to Your will in this moment. 
Dear Mother, Father, God, I surrender to Your peace in this moment.
Dear Mother, Father, God, I surrender to Your love, Your healing grace.
Dear Mother, Father, God, I wish to lean into the wisdom of my soul.
I wish to hear Your voice, Your guidance today.
For I have been at a loss.
Try as I might, no matter how much progress I make,
I can only see how much further I have to go.
Let me not judge my moments of relapse.
Let me not judge my moments of instability.
Dear God, help me to recognize that I don't have to wait for perfection in order to receive love.
Dear God, help me to remember that despite my human flaws and shortcomings, that You still view me as perfect, whole, and complete, that You still view me as Your beloved child. Dear God, please reassure me that my best is always enough even when I feel I've fallen short.
Please assure me that I am still well on my way despite my obsession with each hang up I encounter. For every time I heal a deeper layer and then find myself in the midst of yet another break-down, I can't help but kick myself for my folly.
Dear Mother, Father, God, please guide me through the coming weeks, months, and years, for I know not how to reach the vision You've shown me without Your ever steady hand.
Thank You, God. Thank You, God. Thank You, God.
Let this be so. And so it is. Amen.