A Calloused Soul
I want the world to know
that sometimes I am tired of being strong.
I want the world to know
of the murky waters from which I've sprung.
I want the world to see
how I have defied the odds
like a flower sprouting through concrete.
I want the world to see
the depths of my calloused soul
in the words I write and in the stories I share.
I want the world to know
that though I have felt like many things in my life,
human was never one of them.
This is not me saying "woe is me".
This is me saying it is time
for me to be proud of how far I have come.
This is me saying it is time for me to be proud
of the journey I have had thus far.
This is me saying it is time
for me to be proud of myself
for allowing the harsh realities of the world
to prompt endless kindness from me.
This is me saying it is time for me
to love myself for carrying the belief
that no one should suffer as I have.
It is time for me to love myself
for always giving the world my heart and soul
even as it tried to burn me to the ground.
I am still learning how to embrace those feelings
since I fear losing my humility.
I do not wish to place myself on a pedestal
and so I tend to fall back into martyrdom.
But today, I am ready to learn self-love.
Today I am ready to learn how to be proud of myself.
Hoodwinked
My ego has kept me hoodwinked;
I cannot yet see the full potential
buried in my soul.
And I acknowledge the fact that
I, my eternal self, chose a life
in which I would lose sight of myself.
So let me proclaim here and now
that I am ready to remove my blindfold
and see the truest version of me.
Let me proclaim here and now
that I am ready to remove my blindfold
and see the ceaseless flame
that burns within my soul.
Let me brazenly shine my light
into the deepest, starless night.
Dear God, I Am Tired
Dear God, I am tired of being strong.
Please let me rest in Your loving arms.
Please allow the "hush of heaven to hold my heart today"*.
Dear God, I am tired of holding my head up.
So may I please rest peacefully in Your divine embrace.
Please let me rest a while so that when I rise again,
I will have the energy to continue my transformation.
Grant me the courage to love myself exactly as I am.
Grant me the courage to embrace all of my perceived flaws
and to see them, instead, as Your gifts to me.
*A quote pulled from A Course in Miracles
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