A Bygone Age of Grief

A decade ago,
I began grieving my loss of innocence.
Until God reminded me
that I was and have always been
innocent.

A decade ago,
I began grieving my loss of faith.
Until God found a way
to restore it
in my mind,
in my body,
in my soul.

I grieved my brokenness,
for I felt shattered.
I grieved over my sense
of powerlessness
and insignificance.
Until God assured me
that I was perfect,
whole,
and complete.
And that I was loved
just as I was.

A decade ago, I began grieving
over my trauma tarnished
childhood.
Until God reminded me
that I still had experienced
wonderfully carefree times
as a child.

My prayers then
began "If there is a God",
and now they begin
"Dear Mother, Father, God"
And end with "Thank you, God"

Dear Mother, Father, God,
I ask that you stay with me,
today and everyday,
so that I shall never again
believe those lies.
I ask that you
continue to fill my mind
with the truth of my
power and divinity,
with the truth of my
perfection.

May I never again question
whether or not
I am Your beloved
child,
Your beloved
daughter.
May I never again
claim the victim-hood
identity as mine.
May I trust today and every day
that I always have
Your protection and provision
every step of the way,
every hour of the day.

May today mark this decade
a bygone age of grief and self-pity.
May the grieving reach its end today.

Thank you, God. Thank you, God.