A Prayer to Restore Self-Love

My biological father successfully convinced me that I am unlovable.
He successfully convinced me that there is nothing good about me.
His actions successfully convinced me that the world was made up of monsters
and that I was one of them.
He made me angrier at myself than I was at him.
He made me hate myself more than I could hate him.

I don't know how I let him get away with this for so long.
The amount of energy I have put into my self-hatred,
into suppressing all that needs to be expressed...
How did I let him so thoroughly ruin my relationship with myself?
And how can I begin to rectify it?

Dear Mother, Father, God, Great Spirit, Our Creator...
Angels, guides, and ancestors,
please pour Your healing light, Your healing grace into my crown. 
Dear Mother, Father, God, Great Spirit, Our Creator...
Angels, guides, and ancestors,
please dissolve all of the shame, guilt, and self-contempt
that still thrives in my consciousness.
Dear Mother, Father, God, Great Spirit, Our Creator...
Angels, guides, and ancestors,
please mend the fissures in my mind that allowed me to believe
that I was unlovable, that I was despicable, that I was the monster.
Please mend the fissures in my heart that ruptured my self-love,
and those that kept it ignorant
of God's unending, unconditional love for me.
Thank You, God. Thank You, God. Thank You, God.
Let this be so. And so it is.
Amen