My Legion of Light (Day 3)

Thank You, Legion of Light,
for teaching me
that with just one quick thought,
I shall be able to feel You right by my side.
Thank You for assuring me
that with just one brief acknowledgement,
I shall be able to feel Your love
pouring into my heart.
Thank You for reminding me
that I have but to call on Your aid
and Your light shall wrap gently around me
and fill my soul.

In this moment I request Your help.
Years ago,
having been lost in the anguish
of my human experience,
I felt the need to deify the pain.
In just one day,
God was replaced
by the agony of mortal wounds.

For how could I believe
that God was with me
through the misfortune,
when pain was all I could perceive?
That day,
pain became more reliable than God.
That day,
pain became my constant companion
and I found a way to convince myself
that there was protection in this pain.

Which is why I need Your help.
In order to fully connect with You,
in order to firmly re-establish a relationship with You,
I need to un-deify the pain.
I need to unlearn
what my human experiences taught me.
I am in need of a drastic shift in perception,
a drastic shift in perspective.

So Legion of Light,
please pour Your love and light
into the part of my consciousness
that still prefers the pain.
Legion of Light,
please pour Your healing grace
into the part of my consciousness
that still finds folly
in allowing joy and happiness
since it believes pain will inevitably
interrupt bliss.
Legion of Light,
please show me that bliss
doesn't have to slip
through my hands,
please show me
that it doesn't have to be
so hard to hold onto.
Thank You.
Thank You.
Thank You.